Meet them. They are my life . Forever and always . Even though one day i know , they'll gonna leave . But im proud and im glad to say , They love me once . They're the one who shine my life through thick and thin . So yeah , this time there will be no cursing . I love you all and i wish you will live your life with a big smile on your face . Never forget me . I was there too . I was one of the people who give that beautiful scar in your heart . Always and forever . You guys were the one . I HEART YOU :3

My Myeda and Jessica

Missing them a lot :'( They use to be my everything in this world . But hell crushed us . Its very sad knowing that your life is now turning againts you . Now i don't have anything . I lose all of it . Im so sorry for the wrong things i've done . Note that i will always love you no matter what . You were my everything . I love you :'(

This Life

When will this end? when will this stop? when will i be free? when will i have my smile back? the way i use to laugh, to talk, to act, i've lost it. I can no longer see light. Wanting to be happy is all i need. Why can't i just be perfect? why can't i live my life just like in fairy tale? My reflection keep telling me, you're strong. Don't give up. But my inside keep pushing me down. way down to the past of breaking. Will IT stop when i raise my white flag? will it finally stop when i lose all my breath? God, tell me when will this pain stop? Im just like you. Im weak. Im fragile. Im a human being. Fly me a wish and i shall flew with it. Life is not a piece of cake. Love is not always beautiful. Me, is not that strong to see the enemy finally had that chance to burned me into ashes. I've once a strong women. I was. Never was i thought to see my own reflection turned away and that spirit inside fade. Would blood be enough to settle such chaos? I've tried. but still nothing change. There will always be war. A war between me and myself. A war between Life and Love.

                                                                                                                                     Joyce Isabelle ~

School Time!

What a stupid day to start a fresh smile this morning. My teacher say i should smile a lot. It makes me look younger or what ever. I don't really care about my looks now. Its okay to be ugly for a while. This time i should make up my brain rather than my face. I realize that a beautiful face won't stay beautiful forever. Not saying that im beautiful but hell yeah, i have fans you know :-P for now im going to forget the past and the people who fucking hurt me then leave a bullet in my heart and almost kill me once. I dont care to lose a fame. I don't care to lose my popularity for keeping my distance close to such wrong people. I just need a friend like Willince, Ellika, Mellisa, and bla bla bla... They appreciate me more than the last one. You wanna know what? I risk it all. I let it all go. For what? For my past friend. I give my life and my studys away just for them and just a snap, they're gone. Ughhh! i dont have to say this anymore. I need to face the fact that things are not meant to last forever. Thanks for my beautiful teacher Arni, i get to realize all of that. So, fuck you to the people who hurt me. Fuck them really bad. I love my new life. I LOVE IT. So now im going to bath since it 6am and i have to rush. School is waiting and i have to study hard. Wish me luck guys. I love you :-*

My perfect Intro :)

Hai, im not new. my last account was hacked. i think so laa. because i can no longer logged in. No, i didn't forget my password. i remembered it like hell. it was HIS name. i don't care actually. i hate that blog. it reminds me of him. So yes, we broke up. I hate him. he's a jackassss. fuck him. I hope he died. yeahhh.. SPM is coming up really fast. im not ready. im stupid. like so very stupid. i guess this time im doomed. i dont know what to do with my life. hoping for someone who's so freakin rich will love me and marry me and i'll kill him and eat all his brain and have all his money and be rich. *its a fantasy. Get to know me better will you? Do follow :3

Turning over a new leaf. #Me and my perfect lil brother